I have been going over and over how to make this blog something special, but also something real, so instead of not coming on and posting random posts, I've decided to post whatever I feel. When I started this it was about me having a voice where I didn't have one, so that's what I am going to do.
I've been absent, A LOT of bad, good, then bad, has happened in my life. I am learning from this and moving onward and trying to move forward. One of the things I am trying to do is loose weight and become fit. So right now this is something I will be talking about.
I've been a big girl my whole life, like really, and when I say this I really want you to know like 364 LBS. I have been big for AS long as I can remember. So I'm not just this person who is thin but think shes fat, nope that's not me. I've been kinda saying over and over why can't I find something online about a BIG girl weight loss success story. Like someone like me, but they are scarce. I can't find any.
SO I am going to be one. This journey is just starting, and I am only doing weight loss for myself. No one else. I ALWAYS say we have to love ourselves just as we are or we will never love ourselves. I am a big girl, but I never let that stop me. I love me for just me, and I will always love me. Being bigger doesn't define how I feel about me, I DO. Anyone who is reading this that feels like your worthless, know that YOUR NOT. Only you can make yourself worthless if you allow that thought in. no one else can, not your friends, enemies, teachers, bosses, or even family.
I've had a family that mentioned my wright my whole life, literally even Christmas presents were weight loss stuff. I chose to LOVE ME for me, and not allow anyone to make me feel smaller. Eleanor Roosevelt said it best, "No one can make you feel inferior without you consent." No matter who it is in our lives only we control how people make us feel. I know I am probably making this sound easy, and if your struggling with this right now, your like, "Yeah, easy for her to say, but she really doesn't know what its like." I really do know what its like. REALLY, and that's why I want to tell others.
So I will be posting about my journey as it continues. I have been to the gym the past 2 nights, and I think going tonight. I am in a lot of pain, because last night I did what's called, training to failure. SO I am hoping to see some results. I'll even post weight loss, achievements, when I do.
Thanks for your time, and reading, and remember you, just YOU, are awesome, be just who you are.
Peace, love and light!
