Saturday, February 20, 2016

Rejected.

So I did it. I proposed and almost lost my whole relationship in the process. They were so upset because they said they didn't know if they'd ever give me what I want so therefore we shouldn't be together.

I haven't cried so hard in all my life. It was crazy. I feel so out of it. I did sleep, but it was so scary. It's like why did I even bother. I'm so so so incredibly stupid. Anyways I just wanted to update everyone. 

That bombed. =(

Peace, love and light!

Monday, February 15, 2016

Irish Tradition

No comments yet on my last post, so I'll wait a little longer before I write one of those specific topics. However there is something on my heart.

I've been in a tough but wonderful relationship for the past 8 years. I've been patiently waiting for them to propose to me. They know and we've talked about it a lot, but we do not currently have the money for rings or a wedding.

I've understood that completely and I've been waiting patiently. Recently a family member has come forward and has been willing to make me dress shopping, and venue looking. They want to help make my dream wedding a reality for the summer when I'm off.

I'm weary. I know my partner seemed upset because I said we were dress shopping but didn't tell them what type of dress shopping. They've been upset lately, so since my family member has come forward, I figure it should be me that comes forward to them.

I know they want to propose on their own terms and I am fine with them doing that but I remember my great Grandmother told me about an Irish tradition during leap year and that the women can propose instead. SO I'm trying to plan the perfect proposal, and in the end eill tell them that they can still plan a proposal once we get the ring, but until then I'd like to make the intention known and see if they will marry me.

So wish me luck. I've got to plan something out this week. IF any Irish lasses out there read this or even men to give me pointers PLEASE write me.

Peace, love and light.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Thinking things.

I've been away again. I'm not sure if anyone reads this but just in case someone does I think I'm just gonna speak my mind the next couple days. There's several things I wanna talk about over the next little bit. Some ideas I've had and things that I just need to get out.

Topics include:
~~~~~Our healthcare system
~~~~~Pardons
~~~~~Cannabis
~~~~~Commonwealth
~~~~~Moving abroad
~~~~~Scary shit
~~~~~Weddings
~~~~~Living life daily
~~~~~Depression
~~~~~Teaching Peace
~~~~~Co-existing
~~~~~Be the change
~~~~~Love
~~~~~Death
~~~~~My best friends
~~~~~Family
~~~~~Ignorance
~~~~~Poetry
~~~~~And much more.

If any of the above topics you want to hear one first let me know and I will for sure do that one 1st.

Missed writing.

Peace, love and light!