Pain

One often wonders if pain is relative. I mean I know that there are people in worse pain then me currently, but I'm in so much pain right now it's nauseating. I don't like to complain, and I might have called in sick if I'd known it was going to be this bad, but what can you do? Try to move on with my day and keep going. I SO hope I make it till the end of the day!!!

How is all of you're Monday mornings going?

Peace, love and light!

April 30th 2016

On April 28th 2016 it will be exactly 2 years since I spoke to my best friend of 15 years, April 29th 2016 will be my 35th birthday and on April 30th 2016 it will be exactly 2 years since my best friend of 15 years killed himself.

It's not something I talk about often. But it's something that does affect me deeply. I'm in a job that makes me happy, and a good relationship, and things are looking good. However the amount of REAL genuine friends I have is limited. That saddens me. Don't get me wrong some of the friends I have are amazing and I love them so much. They mean the world to me, but most of them aren't local to me. They are long distance which makes it hard when you need a shoulder to cry on, or want someone to go to a Halloween party with.

I went to an event Friday evening for my work and while there I ran into an old friend. IT was awesome to see him again, and when we hugged I remembered why we became friends in the first place. I immediately reached out to him again, and told him how much I missed him and how much I hope we can get together soon, and awesomely enough he agreed.

So glad for the reconnect. I miss having that person who your soul can be naked with, and just genuinely you. No need to act any which way but yourself. It's the best feeling in the world.

So if anyone out there feels alone, or like you don't have anyone, reach out to me. I don't want anyone to feel like they have no one. It's not true. You have someone, we just haven't met yet.

Peace,love and light.

This is the MAN we voted for!!!

The picture says it all...

Any questions?

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WE did it!

Sorry for the delayed response. I was ill and unable to write but I wanted to make sure I did write for whomever reads and say... WE DID IT. YAYAYAYAYA Canada we did it. We got rid of Harper, and put in the 1st ever dynastic (meaning from the same family), Prime Minister. We did it. Now we will be expecting change and I really hope he delivers.

THANK-YOU CANADA!

Peace, love and light!

Rick Mercer

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Still time!!!

Polls are still open until 8:30 p.m (locally). If you haven't yet go out and vote. Not registered? No worries, register in seconds onsite. No drive? No worries call 1-888-542-3725 (Canada wide), they will come and get you. Go vote. Less than 4 hours remain but you can still make a difference.  

Still time. Click on the picture to make it larger so you can see you time for your local and time zone. There is still time in all places right now. 

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Canada Go Vote

I know I've been very vocal about who I think should win this election. However, I feel more strongly about just getting out to vote. Stand for something or you stand for nothing. PLEASE just vote!

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Who is Andy Fillmore?

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Harper

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Vote

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Justin Trudeau

This man is more genuine then originally had thought. I got to meet him and talk with him a short time. I am hoping I just met the future leader of our country. He looked right at me and said super nice things, as I told him who I was and about my blogging (etc...) for this election. He was so sweet and genuine. IT was the best!

HE IS READY.
HIS TIME IS NOW.

Peace, love and light!

Godsmack

So wicked awesome night had to come on and tell someone. So quiet night at home just me and the partner, sitting around watching TV and all of the sudden he gets an email, and you'll never guess what. HE won, yes WON, tickets to see Godsmack. So just got home, and so freaking happy. Had to tell someone. Here's a crappy picture. But hey I was there.

Peace, love and light.

Tomorrow AM I meet Justin Trudeau

I am so excited. I get to meet the man I've been campaigning for tomorrow AM early in the morning. I'm kinda freaking out a little. I am just so excited.

With all the CHILDISH attack ads Harper is putting out there, I can't wait to finally meet the man I feel is best for this country!!!

YA-YA! Remember voting is October 19th and if you need a ride call 1-888-542-3725

Peace, love and light!

Be the change...

This great man said this, "You must be the change you wish to see in the world." ~~ Mahatma Gandhi. I have always cherished this quote. Simply because this is what I try to do each day. I try to be kind, caring, loving and gentle to everyone I meet. 

Don't get me wrong I am a love me or hate me type of person. I can be brutally honest when I think it's needed. I don't mince words very easily. Even then I try to be brutally honest in the kindest of ways. I think everyone deserves the truth, weather or not they may want to hear it. 

When someone tries to bully you, or make fun of you. The only reason those words can affect you is if somewhere you're insecure enough to believe them. On you realize this you then realize that it's not THEM that's hurting you, its not even the WORDS that are hurting you. It's YOU hurting you, because you don't love yourself enough to know that those things aren't true. 

Look I'm fat. I weigh 340 LBS. So believe me when I say I know those words aren't nice. At one point they hurt me especially when my MOTHER and SISTER said them. Then I learned to love ME for ME. I spent a lot of time in nature, and water, and reflected. I became comfortable being ALONE, and with just me. I learned to love who I was all by myself, learned to love being truly alone, and love every part of me. This is when those words stopped hurting. 

So if you need help to do this. I can help you and I would love to. There's nothing more embarrassing for a bully to try and hurt you, and it doesn't phase you. They are then defeated. Let's defeat them together. 

WE can do this.

YOU, YES YOU, can do this. 

Peace, love and light!

I JUST VOTED!!!

Advance polls now open Canada!! Go vote it matters!

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Sound of silence.

Drinking a bottle of wine, and listening to the Sound of Silence. I'm reflective. I've been campaigning on here for someone and loads of people don't even read me. It's finny. I tired to volunteer and help because I'm probably the biggest supporter, but because I didn't want to do door to door no one ever contact me. 

I didn't want to do door to door because I can't walk and stand for extended periods, medically. But they didn't hear that. So no calls for when something else opened. Missed out on the biggest supporter they have. 

Anyways, I just wish one person made a difference. I have always told myself that we are each uniquely and divinely created. That we are all special and only each of us individually can actually do the job we were placed here to do. I still firmly believe that and hold onto that hope. 

However I've been writing for years, and hoping people would read me and start a community, just like those on YouTube. I even was going to start up volgging but alas I write and write and no one responds or reads. And those who read once don't come back. 

So I keep on, and on, and push on and hope I make a difference, but do I, really, do I? This song fully describes how I feel. 

SIMON & GARFUNKEL LYRICS

"The Sound Of Silence"

Hello darkness, my old friend,

I've come to talk with you again,

Because a vision softly creeping,

Left its seeds while I was sleeping,

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone

Narrow streets of cobblestone,

'Neath the halo of a street lamp,

I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light

That split the night

And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw

Ten thousand people, maybe more.

People talking without speaking,

People hearing without listening,

People writing songs that voices never share

And no one dared

Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools," said I, "You do not know.

Silence like a cancer grows.

Hear my words that I might teach you.

Take my arms that I might reach you."

But my words like silent raindrops fell

And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed

To the neon god they made.

And the sign flashed out its warning

In the words that it was forming.

And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls

And tenement halls

And whispered in the sounds of silence."

Peace, love and light!

GO VOTE. EARLY POLLS OPEN CANADA.

GO VOTE, GO VOTE. AND HOPEFULLY YOU WILL VOTE LIBERAL.

DON'T LET HARPER WASTE ANOTHER CENT!!! 

VOTE LIBERAL.

Peace, love and light!

Sitting home alone of a Friday night.

So my exciting night consists of eating fruit with chop sticks and a bottle of wine. How exciting. I should be thankful where as in Canada it's Thanksgiving weekend. So I am not trying to complain. I just wish I had family or something closer so that I could have a good old fashioned turkey day. I haven't had a proper Turkey day since my Grmmie passed away. I miss her.

So what are you up to? 

Peace, love and light!

WOW how times flies.

I just can't believe how time flies. It's amazing to me. So there's been stuff going on in social media, especially on YouTube that I will be addressing in a separate post. I'm even considering a vlog on it but unfortunately my vlog channel isn't running yet and I'm still working on getting editing software.

Besides Canadian politics there's a lot happening in the world that needs to be addressed. I am sorry for the break in writing. I've said that many times over, but this new job has been consuming a lot of my time. I am also trying to get my home in proper order, as well as possibly move. That's a dream thus far, but it's something I'm looking into.

So I will throw this out there for now. I've had people from Ireland read my blog. I really hope you get this one. I am wondering if someone would be able to assist with gemology and also how people move between countries. The two seem unconnected but for me they are. I've always had a desire to move to Ireland, or Australia. I would like to more on how to do this.

I am not rich by any means, and that seems to make things easier. I know it's possible. People do it all the time, I just don't quite know how. So if anyone out there can help PLEASE PLEASE let me know.

Peace, love and light!

Want Jobs?

If you want more job don't depend on Harper. He's done nothing and will keep doing nothing. Harper doesn't care about us who need more money and jobs, he only cares about being richer. I truly wish he wasn't able to run again. I thing he should HAVE to resign after 2 terms.