quick one

so i had to present a project today, and i did really well. today was/is beautiful out, and a couple things happened that upset me and i had to try to chill out, so i went for a walk into the woods, and i was going hard, found some water, splashed my face and arms, then when i got back out to the car to drive to go home, i noticed i was pretty cut up from the branches and such, so i came home and put iodine on my cuts, but even with the cuts i feel so much better, i love walking in the woods, now i need to sleep in the dirt next to a fire again.

oh and trying out a new workout to see if i can get some better results, last weigh in i was 330lbs still, so trying out something a little different!

thanks for sharing in my life,
peace love and light.

Hello all

Pretty rough weekend. I'll be super happy when I am done school and able to work. It's kinda a double edged sword. I am not fond of my school as an institution, but I am super happy for the education and the career opportunity after. I want to work to make money, and start getting my life on track. I am in my 30s and it would be nice to finally get  some headway. I want to travel, and I want to do things. Living month to month, and running out of everything from food to bathroom tissue is harder than I would like it to be. Accepting all donations...(hehe, I'm sure everyone feels this way from time to time). Know this is short, but just want to make the habit of signing on everyday, and checking this out more often!

Peace, love and light!

I have been seeing some people actually looking at my blog lately. That's awesome and creates a sense of necessity to make sure I get a post out there. I see some views were from Russia, which is kinda nice, I was actually thinking about trying to teach out there at one point, before I went to school, I was seriously looking at trying to go over to teach and work.

I am a little stressed at school, this subject is harder then most for me to grasp, and I have an exam tomorrow, so I am trying to get all the information I need.

I did want to mention that I have been going to the gym 3 times a week. I do cardio and resistance training. I've been staying at around 330 LBS, I am being told that my body composition is changing however because muscle is denser than fat, my weight is staying at this state. I am getting upset. I am big, and I am working hard and I would love to see results, and it's hurting me that I can't. To me even though my body composition (body fat to muscle ratio), that's awesome, but I don't look any different to me. I want to see some changes in the way I look.

However I will keep on keeping on and I will keep updating this so that others will be encouraged. I also hope that people will start finding this and realizing that I'm just a woman from a small palce, and this is an attempt to feel connected to something bigger. I don't have many connections, so I hope to find some.

Peace, love and light!